Ok, here goes.
The last time I've truly been active in blocktopia was over
eight months ago. Back then I was the enthusiastic guy that would host events and try to get Solitude back up. I've left blocktopia since that and went to a different community where I became manager of a server. I noticed that you can't be enthusiastic about everything all the time, unless you have no job, school or obligations and can spend 24/7 behind a PC monitor. Everyday I was contacted by at least seven people about various amount of things such as donations, rules or new content.
This got to the point where I got sick of it. I stopped using smileys so that people wouldn't think: "Oh yes, the owner likes me so I've got it in the bag now." Everyone licks your ass when you are the person that can veto and accept any decision and it happened a lot. Now that I stopped using smileys, people didn't start talking to me everyday about their life and their friends. If you have two friends and they do it occasionally, then that's fine. But when you get your staff members along with community members who secretly want to apply talk to you about their life day by day you grow tired of it.
I stopped looking enthusiastic, even if I loved the idea of adding onto my server. It didn't help to say "Wooohooo we're adding new guns" because people would say "Oh can you add this too? And this?" Once again, that works if it's only one user but I'm one guy and they are a playerbase of around 20 regulars and 70 come-and-go'ers a day. It got the point where I had to argue with my staff members because they didn't understand that no meant "No, I'm not adding it now shut up or lose your rank."
Every post I posted on the forums was short and targeted to the point. If I announced something, I stuck to announcing it. No thank you's for all the support or enthusiastic cheering and promises for more content. Everyone I wanted to thank I had already thanked (and paid) and I had learned from previous experiences that being enthusiastic just costs me hours of my day. Promising new content is never a good idea because coding is dangerous. You can't say "The code will be done in five hours" because any glitch or bug that arises delays that by at least another half hour if you're lucky.
I've grown from being enthusiastic to serious and straight to the point, hence the short posts. It's happened to me before that I posted something and the context wasn't clear which resulted into arguments against my post. I tried to avoid that by keeping my posts as short as possible. Even then my posts were taken out of context. Prizyms suggested I add on to my application, that is a suggestion. I respond saying I don't see why I'd have to add more seeing as I have added all I wanted to add. That's where it could've stopped because that was it.
When I posted my application I did look over it and I was happy with it. It was short and to the point. This is what you have to know, this is what I can and this is what I will do. I don't do long threads filled with bullshit about how I love every user on the server because that's a lie. I'm not going to say I am insanely interested in every group of players on blocktopia because I am not. I said I would try to make the server more enjoyable; to help players by giving advice, opinions and by making them feel safe on the server. That I would deal with rule breaking as every staff member is expected to.
But my posts were taken out of context and it kept adding on. I know I should've stopped, but at the moment I was pissed. This was not the first time this had happened to me and it only happens to me in Blocktopia. I keep my post neutral and short, it gets a response as if I shouted it, keeping the other person at gunpoint. It feels unfair, and I want to point out that it is not what I meant but it just keeps spiraling on and on and on and eventually people who shouldn't even post here join in. One of them being JubJubers, who I do not at all like.
Thymos, thank you. Even if you asked everyone, including me, to calm down you did step up. I was calm, my posts were neutral, but after two more comments where my posts were taken out of context I got pissed off and it became annoying as shit.
I don't like Prizyms either. There's a whole network of conflicts going on between me with JubJubers and Prizyms (not related, for as far as I know) so the -1 wasn't a surprise to me. I did truly feel that the application was good enough as it was though. Prizyms' post was just advice, and there shouldn't be an argument based on advice. Advice is something you take or leave, that's that.
iiDeathCookies is my girlfriend, so the +1 was expected. I didn't ask her to reference me, she said she did when I told her I was planning on making an application. You can't deny a reference. That's the same as saying: "No you can't tell others I am good, don't say anything!" It's nonsensical and you look like a daft prick.
In conclusion there's some things that pissed me off. JubJubers posting that I should listen to others. Malcovent rating my post disagree when the last contact that I've had with him was far from pleasant and Prizyms giving me advice that I said I didn't want to take.
I apologize that it turned out into all of this arguing and I never wanted it. Some of you think I am applying for this position just because Zel is staff, this is far from true. Rituals of Fire isn't my kind of gamemode, neither is AoD and I want Dusk of Discordia to be a game at first, and not something I am partially responsible for. I never expected that I'd get into BuildBox because normally I'd just fly around and chat with people.
Inon taught me some things though, and I turned a circle into my Rituals of Fire map submission (Yes, this was proof towards Inon to show him that sky circles can be used in an original way even if they've become a cliche)
That's all, I've talked to Sploorky and I've set things straight.